IF I DIDN'T HAVE KIDS! Those were the words Chris heard as I was wiping away my tears. Honestly, it wasn't the kids fault even. They were fine. I just broke down. Sometimes the pressures of motherhood just pile up and I feel completely overwhelmed...like I am going to ruin these kids because I am me.
I don't have a schedule to make sure I get all of these things done, I missed a subject (or two or three) in school today, I only put John on the potty twice today (AGAIN!), the supper dishes aren't cleared away, the kids are in front of a movie (AGAIN!), the toys are scattered all over, and all I really want to do is veg in front of the computer screen!
You can't tell me I am alone in these feelings! I know I am not! That's just it, though, they are feelings. Feelings don't equal truth. God's Word does! Why does it always seem that the clarity of that comes after the storm?
Matthew 11:28 says, "Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." So, why do I feel too guilty to come to Him? Romans 8:1 says, "Therefore, there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." Once again? Why? Why do I think I have to, or even CAN, fix myself before I come to Christ?
Leaning on Christ is thing we do out of humility. Amazing how pride gets in our way EVEN when we are His children! James 4:10 says, "Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up." That is what I need to be doing. On the days that I can...and the days that I can't! God doesn't want us to wallow in self-pity and insecurity, but He can't help us until we let Him.
So, today I have pulled up my boot straps and I am back to the parenting game...with God's help! And, on that note, here is another blog post to make you think on days like I had yesterday.
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